i cant hate, is not me. i decide to better love riley whaever he is, i dont care no more if he is 5yo or 99. i decide to love his beautiful human heart coz he got a beautiful one regardless whatever happened. ill b his friend 4 ever.
but then YOU came to my life:
ur my light.
my tears
my laugh
my kisses, my hugs, my tenderness, loving care, kindness, honest, loyal, truthful, so sweet, one face, my heart, my soul, the hands that caress me, the shoulder i cry on, the human i hug and start to shake coz u mean the world to me, im in love and all silly, the one that just come and even i doesnt say a word in the whole day you just stay w me, hug me, lay down by my site, rest ur head on my shoulder, u caress me just with ur eyes and they tell me how much you love me.
idk how to describe how much i love you coz idk the words, i dont even think they exist, but my essence as a human, every molecule, atom, all that we r that cant see and called heart and soul, all me loves you as i ever have love no one.
i thank God every minute i am alive for allow u in my life.
i love you Andy.
thanks to all who pray for me.
im sry i scare my family and friends but i just took 3 valiums from my grandpa with wine and pass out bad.
andy was pretty scare as my parents and friends but i just wana like pass out sleep quick to scape and just sleep and forget bout everything.
they took my to ICU but i wasn`t in a coma, thanks god coz i wasnt typing then. i was in ICU just for couple of hours.
i feel everything but proud or happy bout my self. im pretty shame and sad, specially coz andy, he was pretty scare.
they performe an scan just to b sure but was just 3 valiums and not a bunch of pills how was every body thinking, like if i was trying to kill my self. wasnt like that.
ill spend the nit at the hospital but i go home 2morrow morning.
is all
JUSTIN IS BACK.
I TALKED TO HIM FOR A LITTLE BIT.
THE DOCS ARE PERFORMING A CT SCAN ON HIM NOW TO BE SURE HIS BRAIN IS OK.
THANKS ALL FOR YOUR PRAYERS.
Andy
his name is andy and we`ve been friends for few yrs now but coz our so beatiful friendship didnt dare to open in this area not to ruin what we all ready have, but andy is like me, when he thinks he have to talk he will and straight to ur face and he did and i cant be happier.
he fills me up completly, his love is the most beautiful thing ever happened to me. we live 1/2 mile apart from each other and is sooo kewl. we can hug, kiss, cuddle, hang out and is the best medicine.
is all for now. :)
later :)
